The St. Louis Cardinals, yep it's that time again.

I'm not the cheery, glass half full kinda guy. Most of the time, in situations where most people see a glass half full or half empty, I just see another dirty glass. I do want to see things half full though. I like the optimism. But even more than that, I like to make fun of the negative point of view: even mine. Because at the end of the day, having a negative outlook is depressing and ugly. Always looking at the worst aspect of something will always leave the impression of something bad.

I enjoy sports but I love Ole Miss, baseball, and soccer. My love for these sports (mainly St. Louis Cardinals, Ole Miss everything, and Manchester United) is not something that I depend on to make my life meaningful or complete. It's more like "it is what it is". It's not something that can be explained easily or completely. I'm obsessed, very loyal, and stubborn. But only to a point. I don't care about management, governing bodies, owners, or anything else that goes with the normal sporting view of things. Those are meaningless things to me. That point of those things is business and it's not part of my life unless I let it. I don't have to have a championship every season. I don't have to have a win for my happiness or my enjoyment of my teams, but it's always a plus. LOL. I'm more than a win only fan. I'm loyal remember.

All winter I have been keeping up with a few of the Cardinal sights that I like and a few I can't stand (Cards Talk). I like reading fan blogs and keeping up with what other people think. I have never been one of those people that goes with the flow. Heck, I will sometimes change sides just to be a pain in the ass. I have been known to argue a point that I hate just because I felt it didn't have enough support. LOL. But that's not the case this time. This time, this is how I feel. The world will end March 31 of this year. It's all over. Bring on the angels, the burning in hell thing, and all of that eternal life stuff. Just kidding. But it's how things seem from what I read on alot of Cardinal sites. The gloom and doom. The overly pessimestic outlook on everything Cardinals. The "why me" complex. The "they owe me"crap. It's all way toooooooooooo freaking much whinning about a season that doesn't start for over a month. For the most part, it seems, for most people this season will be a postive season only if we lose a 100 games. It's like they have gotten so negative, that they will be happy to be right. Everything is a slap in the face. There is no judgement but theirs. They are the only people that have the ability to judge talent. They will look to places that have been wrong in the past in predictions about the Cards (and usually don't want to acknowledge anybody outside of the east coast), to show how right they are about this team. ESPN is saying this team is horrible. I was reading on this blog where they used this as an example of the state of the Cardinal Nation. ESPN has it's viewing audience and the people that make ESPN popular, and it's not any team from west of the Mississippi River. But it's sad to see things like this. This is just a game. Don't make it into more because then it will be a business, and I don't want my part of this to be a business. I want the game. Nothing more. The game is all I need or want.

The grass isn't greener over there. The grass is always the greenest in Cardinal Red. The Cardinals are always going to be the best. I don't look at another team and have wet dreams over their players. When a player is a Cardinal, he's like a part of my family (as long as he doesn't abuse my trust). The team doesn't owe me anything. I have gotten more from my teams that I will ever be able to repay. So I don't understand alot of the stuff I read. Alot of Cardinal fans feel they are owed. The Cosmos owes them. Everything owes them. I own them. Well they need to just get in line, cause it seems that everybody today feels like they are owed everything. I just don't feel that way.
I don't feel betrayed by the ownership cause I COULD CARE LESS ABOUT THEM. They are not the Cardinals, they just have control over the money. That's such a small thing in my view. But for some people, it's all that matters. They live for the token word from ownership. It's more important that any game. It's more important that any player. It's the WORD. They then spend hours, days, weeks, months comming up with something to show the horrorfying ownership's lack of baseball etiquette. They live for the moment they can show that the owners are businessmen. Their daily motivation is to show us just how un-Cardinal the owners are (as if I gave a shit). It's beyond me but I guess that's life. I probably won't understand everything in life completely, even if I wanted to. But at the end of the day, I know that I am loyal, true, and will always support my teams: GOOD OR BAD.

It's Alive, oh no..........

Yep, I'm still above ground. LOL.

I guess I just needed a break, get my head right (that sounds like something my Dad would say). Actually it kinda sounded like something from a movie where these stoners were talking about getting high. LOL. But it's true I guess. I got real depressed and just felt crappy all the time. Everything was so depressing and hard to deal with. I just kinda checked out for a little while. No big thing. LIFE, IT'S SOMETHING THAT IS FREE, BUT IF YOU TRY TO END IT, THEY LOCK YOUR BUTT UP. I'm not cheerful or anything now, but I'm better than I was. Maybe I should call Brian McNamee for a shot of some feel good stuff. Knowing my luck, I would get sicker or get busted. Then I would probably have to testify before Congress. And all of that. LOL.
Last week was kinda exciting around my part of the world. The Mall that we have to go by on our way out of Memphis (when or if I get to go home), was hit by a tornado. It was a pretty cool storm around here. I know that there was alot of people killed because of tornadoes that day, but it was still cool. It was pretty intense at home from what my Mom said. There was alot of tornadoes that hit south of my house. They kinda went over but didn't hit where I live. But all I know is that when the storms hit at the apartment, the wind was howling like crazy. And I know crazy howling wind. LOL.
Man it felt like spring the last couple of days. It feels like baseball. I can't wait till the games begin. My favorite time of the year. I wish I could play but that's life. I just hope I can catch a few Memphis Redbirds games while I'm stuck here. And now that my buddy Zek has a drivers license, he can drive me around. That will be a plus. He can drive my Dad's truck and we can get out and do stuff. Maybe.