FORE

I want somebody that I can talk to about stuff. Somebody who is or has gone thru this. The information I get from the Docs and reading up on it on the internet isn't helping that much. I want to get first hand info from someone who doesn't mind talking about it with me. But again I don't want to go thru the hospital for that. I've thought about trying to find someone on here to discuss it with them. I want to know what the next steps are if this cycle doesn't work. I want to know the effects it will have on me. There are so many questions I want answered. I"m starting to get scared.

Year in Review

OK, my 2007. It sucked. 07 started with nose bleeds, headaches, alot of aches and pains, sleeping alot, bruises, throwing up, etc. And the year ended with pretty much the same crap. Wow, it's been a great year. And 2008 isn't starting out that great. I fell out of my Dad's truck and bounced off of the car in the next parking space the other day (I wonder if insurance covers that cause I left a dent in the door of the other car). I opened the door and I just couldn't stop (it must have been my big head). Then yesterday I tripped over a painted line on the floor at the grocery store and did a head first slide on the floor (but I was SAFE, there was no tag). And just about everytime I walk for more than a few minute, I get sick at my stomach. Man am I pitiful or what? And I thought I was done with the dizziness. Typical. Just when things seem to be getting better, it doesn't last long. I'm really really tired of everything. Somedays I just want to quit. But I can't say that to my parents or to anybody around me. I've tried to talk to my parents about it but I don't think they want to hear it. I wouldn't mind telling them that I'm frustrated, tired, and tired of being sick all the time. It's not that I am going to quit or I would quit if I could, it's just I wouldn't mind talking to them about it like an adult. It's like I have a role to play: their baby boy. I guess I kinda just faded out in the information and decision part of all of this. I allowed them (my Mom mainly) to make all decisions without my input for too long. Now it's like I can't discuss any of it with them. I think they feel better with me just whining, bitching, and moaning like a brat.
This really sucks. I still think it would be better if the docs would put me in a coma while I'm taking treatments. Sleep thru it. LOL. Oh to dream it away. Maybe I would wake up with some mental ability other than being a dumbass. LOL. Nah, I'm not that lucky. I'd wake up being more of a dumbass.

Now for the muscial part of the program.
Someone finally made a video of Whale and Wasp. This song is too good, one of my favorites. I like to lay in bed and listen to it on repeat. But I like to do that with the whole CD.

Alice in Chains - Whale and Wasp

The Special One

If you don't know who Jose Mourinho is or keep up with English soccer, you may not find this too funny. But these are well done and are way to close to real life. Hope ya'll enjoy...

The Whitest Kids U'Know

Yesterday I got to watching these guys on IFC. I've seen these guys before on FUSE but never really payed attention. Not all of their stuff is that funny, just dumb in a real dumb way but they have some real funny stuff. And they are not politically correct in anyway. Hope ya'll enjoy.

New Year

Sometimes my parents make me laugh. My Mom didn't throw a fit about not having Christmas at home. I know she wanted me to be home but it was ok. But to start the new year, I had to be at home: something about where you spend the night is where you will spend the next year. So we went home for the night. LOL. Today we had blackeyed peas and cornbread: to bring good luck for the new year. We are way too redneck sometimes.