No Turkey Please..................

I know things could be worse but that's no help. It seems there is always something worse. But I hate things the way they are now. My parents seem so tired. And sad. And worried. I knew I had that effect on everybody else but it's bad when I have that effect on my family. What a wonderful talent. LOL.
Well our Christmas dinner isn't gonna happen this year for a bunch of reasons.

• I've been tired and sick, so it would have been a real pain to go home. Plus I probably wouldn't have been much fun when I got there.
• My Uncle is in the hospital so that part of the family wouldn't have been there.
• My sister, brother-in-law, and Shea went down to the coast to see his family (they got back today). My sister got the flu and Shea has a cold, so I couldn't be around them.
• My brother has viral stupidity and I really don't want to catch that. I wish there was some way I could protect Shea from it but what can I do.
• I don't think I could take the smell of turkey or ham being cooked anyway. I walked outside earlier and I could smell a neighbors turkey. They were having a Christmas dinner at their apartment and it was horrible smelling. It just about gagged me.

So it's just Mom, Dad, and me. I'm trying to get Mom and Dad to go home so they can be with my sister and Shea. It's Shea's first Christmas and it's also real important to my sister to have them around tomorrow. I hope they go in the morning so they can atleast do that. I feel bad enough as it is. Everything is messed up because of me and I don't like it. It sucks.

Boy can I suck the fun out of a holiday. Oh well................

PISS ON IT. LOL

A little confession: I miss 360. Things just don't seem the same. I go check my page but it's just not the same anymore (matter of fact, it's kinda depressing). I guess the moment I found out Yahoo was gonna shut 360 down, it lost the comfortable feel it had. My page was a safe place, a friendly place, and it was my place. It was as much home as my home. It's where my friends knew they could get in touch with me. It was a place that people could see who I was because my page came from me. It was part of me. I've looked at other sites but none come close to what 360 was. I think my brainfart page is getting there. I'm liking it more and more everyday. It's hard to show individuality on blogger but it can be done with a little work and time.I always take my time doing most stuff like this anyway. So it's a work in progress.....