Another Day, Another Drama

My brother is going home today. He has an interview with a company about 60 miles on the other side of home. So he will probably stay at home in case there are other interviews and stuff. I'm kinda glad, cause the apartment is real small with him here. He just takes up alot of room, especially when there's nothing for him to do. I guess this isn't where he wanted to be at this time in his life. LOL. Join the club!

So? What am I to do? I'm gonna enjoy the crap out of it. LOL. Vacation. It's not like I'm a baby. I know how to use a phone. I know how to drive. I can cook. Hell, I can even change my own dirty nappys if I absolutely have to. My Mom is obsessing over all of this ( she's talking about taking off from her classes and I don't know if I can handle that), "What if you have a reaction to something?" "What if you get dizzy and fall?"" What if you get sick while your asleep?". Blah Blah Blah..... What she doesn't know is that big bro wasn't that much help anyway. He barely took care of himself, I don't even register on his radar. About the only thing he did was drive me where ever I needed to go. But my Dad is gonna leave his truck here and use a company car, so I have transportation. But I'm still not driving, so it's just for emergencies. When I need to go to see the docs, to the clinic, or the hospital I have other options than driving. We'll just have to figure them out. There are people that volunteer to drive for you thru the hospital. And believe it or not, the preacher that I cussed is another option. I went to his church last Sunday and appologised. He's been over a couple of times this week. He hasn't been pushy with religion or anything. Just visiting. He's a good guy. I'll tell about the visit to his church in a later entry. LOL.

It's weird, in someways I feel I've never been alone and then there are times that I feel I've always been alone. I guess that's normal. But I am capable of making the right decisions for me and I know how I feel better than anybody else. Man most of my life, my parents didn't have any problems with me or my decisions. Now than I'm old enought to take care of myself and make decisions for myself , they are afraid to let me. I know how things are in my life. I've gotten to where I know when I will feel bad, when I will be sick, and when I will feel good: that is as far as physically. Sometimes I'm down mentally but that's life. But I know about me. I really don't need a babysitter. I can deal with my boredom better than having to deal with my boredom and somebody else's. Plus it'll be nice to have some quite around here and the bathroom to myself most of the time. Now if I could only get free porn vids on my pc without it freezing up. LOL.

I didn't go to church this morning. I probably should have but I didn't feel like it. Whenever Mom is around lately, I've always got a headache. Mom = Headache. Yeah it fits. LOL.