School Daze **Old Post from 6-07**

I've been kinda ill tempered lately. Bratty. I haven't felt good. Besides being sick, the crap I have to take makes me feel worse. I haven't been able to do much beyond laying around the house. I don't go anywhere except to church, the doctor and the clinic. I had some blisters or something on my tongue, in my mouth, and in my throat. I think it was cause I was throwing up so much. They peeled after a few days but it was painful for a little while. You probably didn't want to hear about that. LOL. Hey if I will tell ya'll about my skid marks and stuff, you got to be ready for just about anything from me.
I'm not suppose to go outside but that just isn't gonna work. LOL. I get outside a little during the day with Plato. He's gotten to where he will play ball with me. I throw a tennis ball and he will go get it and bring it back to me. So I sit on the porch and he does all the work. LOL. I can't stay outside for long cause of the dust and HEAT, but it's fun while it last. I have to sneak outside if anyone ( MOM ) is here. Her nagging is worse than anything ( "DO you want to get sicker?" "It's too hot." "The doctor said to stay inside" Blah blah blah blah blah blah.......). I've been staying in my room alot sleeping and listening to music. I've actually watched tv some and it still sucks. Reality shows are so dumb and cop shows are almost as bad. I try to watch movies but it seems like it's always the same movies that are on. Oh well, that's life in the fast lane for ya.
My sister and Shea come over some. It's cool to see them but I can't spend much time around them. I'm not like in a bubble or anything, but I try not to get around anybody for too long and babies are a no no. If I can just get over this crap, then maybe I can get to feeling better. Then I can be around everybody more. But I miss being able to play with him. I miss being around other people ( did I say that, ooops ). LOL. But I do. I miss going to the store. I miss school ( Ok I didn't say that, someone else much have gotten in here and wrote that ). But I'm feeling better. I really couldn't feel much worse. LOL.
My Mom has been talking about what I'm gonna have to do about school and colleges. It gives me a headache trying to figure out everything. The school part isn't that bad but trying to figure out about college is a pain. I've always kinda slid thru things in school. I've never really had to try hard to do things. I've always done good but I never tried to do better than just good. As far as my school work, I always do it early and then it's done. But I never worry over things like that. I do the work and then I'm done. I except what I get. Maybe that's better than waiting till the last minute but I think it's pretty much the same cause either way it's finished quickly. I've just always thought it was more important to actually learn something than to worry about if I can regurgitate it back to a teacher for a grade.
I've kinda checked out some colleges but I haven't really decided on anything. I want to go to Ole Miss more than anything but I don't want to live on campus. And I really don't want to drive along way, so unless we move, I probably won't go there. I don't want to go to a community college and my parents don't want me to either. My Mom hates them. She says it's like going to a bad high school. Too much pampering and the students are graded too easily. She wants me to go to a 4 year school but I haven't made up my mind. My options are kinda limited unless I am willing to live on campus. Freshman rules suck.
I could go to Freed Hardiman University. The drive would be ok. Good highways the whole way but out of state tuition would be a big pain. I could go to North Alabama. It's about 2 hours and it's good highways most of the way. But out-of-state tuition again. Ole Miss isn't that far but it's bad 2 lane twisting dangerous highway with heavy traffic. I could go to Blue Mountain College but it's like a strict Baptist college way out in the woods and it's really a girls school. All the Memphis schools are an option. But the traffic is horrible. There's William Carey College in West Point, Ms, but it's a real small Baptist school. There are a few schools around Jackson, Tn that I can check out. It's still a fairly long drive and also out-of-state tuition. Mississippi State is a no go. I will flip burgers the rest of my life before I go to that piss hole. I still got a little time to decide but I got to figure something out soon. This sucks. I wish it was easier to decide this crap. Why are things like this always so hard to figure out? It looks like it would be the easy part, not the hard part.
I've also got to figure out what I want to study. I've never really planned for what I will do when I'm out on my own. To be honest, I've thought about what I would like to do a little but I spend more time thinking about what I don't want to do. I'm working backwards on that. LOL. Typical for me.